Absolving yourself

Well, at times, we feel the sudden urge to set things straight and make someone petty fathom that what you have been doing was for good while that person keeps on misunderstanding you. You want him to really comprehend what’s going on rather than blindly abominating. But sooner or later you realize that the same person is never going to affect you in real life and even when you let him think ugly, it is hardly going to matter. So why bother? But in the long run, it is always going to pinch you that there’s a person out there who hates you for nothing, who believes the wrong side of the story and calls you a phony.

There is hardly anything that can pacify you then and there is, literally, nothing that you can do. You realize in the long run, you have created a bunch of those guys who hate you for the same reason believing ‘his’ story because you never got to express yourself to them. Then again you find that it is going to be trifle after all. But what about the queue you have left behind who are all frowning at you believing some random guy’s opinions? You know you can’t go out and talk to them because your hands are tied and yet you want things to change.
You wish if only all the people on the planet start listening to both the sides of the story before adjudicating you. Still, the presence of such people in your life, might make you feel insecure, might compel you to raise questions to yourself about your conscience even though you believe whatever you did was right. You wish to be absolved but there’s no one to resort to.

To that there is one ultimate thought that might assist you forever. If the same ugly thing is said about you to your ‘true’ friends then they are not going to believe it anyway. No matter how hard they try to elucidate themselves in front of your friends they would always trust ‘you’ for who you are and never believe the random guy’s words. The feeling that ‘at least my friends don’t think so’ and that ‘there are people who care and love me even when things go ugly’ is the penultimate feeling that is going to heal all wounds and you would feel that you have vanquished your woes. You wouldn't remain the same penitent guy again.